What Is Full Bloom Living?
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At its core full bloom living is accepting and experiencing the stream of life with openness, confidence and gratitude—at any age. It takes continual transformation and inner work.
I spent the first half of my life unknowingly spiraling downward, closing myself into a tighter, smaller, more constricted comfort zone. As a response to trauma in early years (and just reacting to life), I started adopting a bunch of solutions to avoid pain and discomfort and to control my sense of well being.
What that looked like was a hundred forms of escapism, disordered eating, body image distortion, rigid ideas, striving for money and position, desperately seeking the approval of others (especially parents and partners)—the list goes on.
One day, I finally saw how trapped I was and what waited for me at the bottom of that spiral. If you’re reading this, I suspect you’ve felt some of the pain, fear, demoralization and defeat that I felt.
That desperation led to a willingness to change. I spent the next 10 years building spiritual and emotional practices to pause the downward spiral, make a u-turn and start trudging my way up, steadily widening my sphere of existence. This was an intense time of healing and dropping rigid beliefs, thinking patterns and behaviors (programming). From the outside, it looked like a quiet, contented time in my life. But my inner world was being reforged.
Today, my life is about continually surrendering old ways (because my old solutions are waiting to kick back in if I let them), integrating the numbed and disconnected parts of myself, and moving upward on that spiral by actively participating in the varieties of experiences that come my way. Living fully and freely.
And I want this for you, too.
Here are some of my focus areas:
Becoming My Higher Self: Connecting to a Higher Power and co-creating a higher state of being, characterized by self-love, compassion, joy, confidence, all of it …
Body Integration: Awakening, accepting and caring for my body as an essential and sacred part of my being and continual transformation. And more specifically, entering into my menopause years consciously and confidently.
Transforming Generational Trauma: As a 1.5 generation Korean American woman, I come from a lineage of colonization, war, poverty, violence and misogyny. That shit worked its way into my life directly and indirectly. It’s a part of my story and I have a responsibility to heal and transform it. It’s happening now as I interact with my mother, who long ago was the perpetrator of my own trauma and now we’re both experiencing intense healing together.
Lastly, although personal transformational practices are the foundation for embracing the full bloom ethos, the “living” part happens out in the world, in community and in relationship. I can’t wait to connect with all of you on this path!
